Day 11 with no medication: What a joke. It was a holiday
weekend and I spent a good portion of it sleeping. The screwed up thing is I’m
getting used to the symptoms and feeling like crap. Doesn't make for a very
fulfilling outlook on things. Lol. I’m still negotiating with my body about
certain things, trying to convince it that if it lets me do just this one more
thing…lol. It’s not easily swayed but I push it…perhaps a little too much. At
forty years old, how could I not push it? I can’t just take it for what it is
and stay in one spot. That has never been my style.
Change is coming. Change is coming in a big way and many
will be surprised to hear the news but the ball is rolling, my body is tired,
and I need a rest. Time to eliminate frustrations, simplify my life, let go of
the unnecessary, and grow in peace. Sometimes we must look at our limitations
and find the loophole. The way through, around, and passed that thing that is
trying to stop or slow us down. Granted, I can’t do as I used to…BUT…I can
still do. That’s my focus. So long as I can focus on that…I will push on. I’m
excited for the new chapters that await me. One way or another, they will be
life changing.
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