Stopping me? Doubt it!

Thursday morning I found out that I most likely have a degenerative muscle disease. According to my first two and third blood labs, I have elevated enzymes in my blood indicating that the muscle pain and weakness I have been fighting for the last 4 months are signs of muscle tissue break down. From pain that wakes me from my sleep to issues with walking or doing things I NORMALLY do...the tests show my body is breaking down my muscle tissue and creating a host of issues.
My blood enzyme levels have increased to 323 and I have an inflamed liver. As much as I try to function normally I am faced with hurdles everyday. Getting up from a sitting position, walking, and moving as freely as I am used to has become taxing. I, being the stubborn person I am, PUSH my way through anything that I feel may try to slow me down but I can not ignore the fact that I am taking pain meds on a regular just so I can get through my day.
One of my doctors and I have talked about some of the diseases it could be...Multiple Sclerosis and Muscular Dystrophy are among the possibilities. From August to now the enzyme in my blood indicating a tissue breakdown has gone up...and I have noticed an increase and relocation of my discomfort.
Many say that they would have no idea I was feeling this way. I lift and train to stay healthy...I squat 325 lbs, I leg press 855 lbs, I run, hike, dance, and live everyday like its my last...so I, as well as others are CONFUSED...yet when I try to get out of bed in the morning I take a minute to walk from bed to bath. When I get out of my car I lumber from seat to trunk because my legs WANT to work but don't to the fullest.
I am 36 years old...36 young years and I refuse to give in to this thing. I yearn for the day that I know exactly what it is so that I can give it a big FUCK YOU because I will not be that person. Try! Try and stop me from being who I want to be and doing WHAT I want to do...you will never win. I am too young, too strong, and too damn willing to fight for what I want.
I don't know whats to come but I know that its not me sitting on the side lines WAITING for someone to come by and try to help me be part of it all. If there is a party...I AM THROWING IT!
I know I am bigger and THIS...sharing...is my release.

Perspective

This was shared with me and I thought it was worth posting.

One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people live.
They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"
"It was great, Dad."
"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.
"Oh yeah," said the son.
"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.
The son answered:
"I saw that we have one dog and they had four.
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end.
We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night.
Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.
We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight.
We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.
We buy our food, but they grow theirs.
We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."
The boy's father was speechless.
Then his son added, "Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are."

Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have.
Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!

"Life is too short and friends are too few."